When you sent your last message, I was actually taking therapy because there was something that was hitting me about traumas but I couldnt quite put my finger on it. Well took it, wish I had taken it sooner, wish you had forced me to take it sooner, wish we had taken some level of couples therapy or something, IDK anything and most of all I wish that you didnt have to shoulder my burden.

Thank you lela, for being everything, the kindest, paroest, sweetest Princess. And most of all I am sorry for not communicating when my trauma got triggered, not being able to do so correctly and throwing the worst version of myself to you and then anticipating that you will understand. BC Tujhe context hi nhi pta to tjhe kese pta chle ga. My God did I fuck up. I really really need to communicate these things better. I will learn it, my only wish is you accept me and give me another shot, perhaps Relationship 2.0 or another for this one, IDK but I will wait for that day to come, the day I am allowed to be the luckiest man on earth once again.

I am sorry, that I wasnt consistent, I am sorry you felt unheard or unseen, I truly regret that and most of all I AM SORRY for causing you exhaustion, my god do I wish I could take it away, suck it out, plaster a billion good feelings on top of it but before I am able to do any of that. I need to take responsibility for everything and I am taking it. I am sorry, I will work on this, for as long as I need to so that the ME you give another chance doesnt do any of the blunders the ME, 2 weeks ago did. You truly are an amazing person, smart, beautiful, gorgeous, bloody pretty eyes and I will be the one that deserves You, your presence, your time, your attention, your smile, your ada, your care, your good morning and good nights, a date with you, your bate and effort and reciprocate it correctly and make plans for you, pluck flowers for you, my GOD how much I wanna do that rn for you. So yes, I will correct myself AND I will wait hoping that you are at the end of this very dark, scary, depressing tunnel that I am left at.

Please take your time but please do come back, do give me another chance and I will make it worth your while, your time and promise to make you the happiest lady on earth.